Loving With Gratitude

Life has taken a real sharp turn these last several months. Meditation is a gift that grounds me. If you have not checked out the free meditation series done by Deepak and Oprah I HIGHLY recommend it. Especially if you've never meditated before.

This morning this was the opening message and I had to write it down. It is a message filled with such truth. It's a message that is now part of me and one I want to be made clear to Haley and Ryan, now and always.

There are really only 2 emotions in life-love and fear.

When we open ourselves to loving and expressing love from a place of gratitude, something miraculous happens. Fear starts to melt away. Love is one of life's greatest teachers. Through love we experience joy, acceptance, and freedom. You realize that gratitude is not so much about how someone else receives or responds to it, rather, it's about you connecting with the truest expression of yourself.

 When you choose to love everything and everybody around you, you send a clear message to the universe. My love transcends fear, anger, rejection. I love even those who have hurt me because they're the ones who need it the most.

 I am thankful for every experience, good or bad, and for how it shaped me into the person I am today. Loving fearlessly through gratitude is one of the most courageous things a human being can do. 

So, I breathe in loving with gratitude and no fear.

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This kid is 7 years old. SEVEN!!!
He is wonderful, smart, funny, loving, kind, and a ray of sunshine.

Haley- Softball

Haley tried a new sport this spring! It is always challenging to try a new sport at this age when most other players have been playing for years. It was an intense commitment- 2 practices and 2 games a week. I do love the game and I especially loved watching Haley grow in it. Her coaches could not have been better for her. They were the perfect mix of caring and loving while also pushing her to pay attention and do her best and, taught her about the game itself. There are so many things to think about in softball. It's all so situational.

This is her game face!

She had a few great plays including her first double in her last game. The stands and the dug out went nuts for her. She was so proud of herself, you could see it across the field.

It was a wonderful season. I loved watching her play. SO PROUD!

My Bridge Run

Over my spring break I decided to conquer a fear I have had since the 1989 earthquake- bridges. Every time I drive over a bridge I have to remember to breathe and my palms sweat the whole time. I dropped the kids off at school and drove, by myself, straight to SF with the plan to run over the Golden Gate Bridge and back. As you can see in the photos, it was a perfect day, sponsored by my angels.

here I am, taking my first steps out. Once I started, I was on my way. I pumped music into my ears and took deep breaths. I did not feel afraid. As I took each stride I felt the strength and sturdiness of the bridge under my feet. It was not shaky. It would not falter. I did not have to fear it falling out from under me.

I stopped many times along the way. I looked over the side. I looked up at the grandness of the structure. I appreciated its design and that I was standing on a bridge people travel to see from far and wide.

I felt fearless. I felt strong. It was an incredible gift I gave myself. I talked about it with my kids and explained that we all have fears. I shared what went through my thoughts and how I became stronger with every single stride. I showed them the pictures.

It was a day for the books.

Haley's 10th Birthday Party

Haley celebrated her 10th in true double digit style by having her first slumber party. We met at the house for pizza and a pinata. We then took the girls ice skating and back to the house for treats and a movie. The girls were so well behaved and had, what seemed, like a great time. It's so nice that Haley has friends who are "age appropriate." They giggled and ran around and played games. They also talked about pop culture and shared stories about teachers and other kids at school.
I love that Haley says a kid while she grows up. She's such a delightful young lady.

Palm Springs 2015

I realize I have so much I have not written about and posted. I am trying to not miss important things so that we all have a record of these events in life.

For our 3rd year in a row, we went to Palm Springs for our February break. Here we all are. Isn't this what it's all about? Some look happy, some not so much. But isn't that life? It's a rare day when we all feel the same way, but we are family and that is what family is.

We had a great time swimming, eating, drinking, playing, golfing, dining...
These times are so special and we are so lucky that our parents have booked this for us each year.

The highlight for me this year was keep away in the pool (which was played right before this picture was taken). We all swam around and dunked and jumped on others to get the ball. We laughed so hard and often played dirty (the Rasul way).

Don't my parents look the happiest of them all? I think so. I think about the future and the pride parents must take in the life they have created. They have been incredible models on what a real marriage and partnership is and goes through.

I admire them beyond words. They are the epitome of living a grateful life. I aspire to be like them in so many ways.

It was another fabulous trip.

Women Superheroes

"The women whom I love and admire for their strength and grace did not get that way because shit worked out. They got that way because shit went wrong, and they handled it. They handled it in a thousand different ways on a thousand different days, but they handled it. Those women are my superheroes."
- Elizabeth Gilbert

Elizabeth Gilbert is one of the women I saw speak at the Oprah weekend. Since then I have followed her on Facebook and I find her wise and strong and empowering. I read her posts every day and feel inspired in some way, but this one really struck me.

I have extraordinary women in my life. I don't know how I have landed such a collection, but I have.I think of the quote above and it speaks such truth. I have seen almost every single woman I admire go through some difficult or tragic aspect of life. They have all amazed me. Perhaps this is why I admire them? There is nothing on earth that compares to a strong woman. They epitomize everything I want for myself and my daughter. I think of my mom, my friends, my family. Everywhere I look I have women that I am in awe of. They go through real things. They are true to themselves. They maintain their value system. They have integrity. They have perseverance. They are strong.

Elizabeth knows what she's talking about. These women are my superheroes too. I need to do a better job of letting them know.