LIFE

There is a friend of a friend who has been fighting cancer for years. This is a young woman, a wife, and mother of 3 beautiful young girls. She has put up a huge fight, one that I have followed through my friend, Joy's, updates.

Today Joy sent me an update that Jenn is saying her goodbyes and asking for love and light for her family. I was at my desk when I got the texts and tears just streamed down my face.This beautiful soul is about to leave earth and leave her children, husband, friends, and family behind to grieve her loss. I can't stop crying.

Life is so beautiful so often and so tragic at times.

I have always LOVED life and still do. I do not take things for granted and I am grateful for every single moment of love and life and health. My struggles are nowhere near others' and I often wonder why others need to endure so much suffering while others do not.

 I have so many life lessons I have learned and yet still so many to experience.

I have lived so much life and have so much more to live.

I have loved so much and have so much more love to give.

I have been loved so much and have so much more love coming my way.

I feel rich in love from being a mother, a daughter, a sister, a friend, a teacher. My life is filled with light, even in the darkest times. My dark times are NOTHING compared to others' dark times. This has never escaped my knowledge.

I allow myself to feel the hard times and recognize the depth of life events. My marriage falling apart has been the hardest thing I have ever experienced. I have lost myself in moments. But, I have brought it back to perspective and although this is tragic to me, I never lose the fact that we are here, we are healthy, Haley and Ryan are so blessed and so am I.

Her name is Jenn Garcia. Please pray for all who surround and love her. She will not leave my heart.

Healing

Today's Affirmation:

I attune to wholeness and express perfect health.

All healing begins aligning my heart and mind with Spirit's vision for me. I am perfectly healthy- vibrant in mind, body, and spirit. I invest in my health by spending time in communion with Greater Power. I say prayers of gratitude for my ease of movement and youthful vigor. I nurture my heart in meditation. I train my mind with positive words.

Guided by Spirit, I make healthy choices when it comes to eating and exercise. I care for myself with regular visits to medical professionals. I am mindful of my speech and refrain from discouraging self-talk. I align every part of my being with Truth principles. As I do so, healing at all levels is not merely likely but inevitable. I am one with God- healed, whole, and healthy.

I Am Enough

Words to live by...

I Lived

This is a song I sing to the kids every single day... It's what I want for all of us- the only way to live life! You should click on it below and listen to it. Sing it to yourself and to those you love!
Happy Monday

I Lived- One Republic

Me Now

                        

Here I am. 6 and 1/2 months in. This is me in Vegas with Trish- a weekend so freeing and light and fun and girlie. I will never forget it.

This picture captures where I am. I feel beautiful and strong and alive. I am working hard to be in a better place for me so that I can be in a better place for my kids.

I am in the phase of accepting. I am no longer putting my gloves on each day, fighting the fight of my lifetime to save my most prized life. I did that for a long time. I am accepting that I cannot fight alone. I am accepting where it is and taking a water break.

I used to think that people who just split from their partner would get all dressed up and stuff to get attention and to live the new single life. How wrong I was. I realize that you just want to feel different than the way you feel in that time. I understand the drastic haircuts, the new clothes, etc. because you feel so dead, so ruined, so numb, that you just want to feel anything but that. Anything would feel better.

I remember going to a 4th of July party and I was complimented on my make up. I put make up on for a swim party, which I never do. I had to. I didn't want anyone to be able to see what I was really feeling inside- the sadness, the pain, the worry, the heartache. I will never judge new looks after a break up again. It's not for attention. It's to hide.

The biggest part of where I am, is in the place of no regret. It is completely freeing to know how much I loved and appreciated my life in the moments they were. It's not taking this life event to make me look back and see what I had. I knew it then and I know it now. I have no regrets.

I LOVED FULLY. I communicated what I cherished in many many ways to the one person I chose as my partner in life. I was all in and I gave it my everything. It is extremely healing to know I always worked to be my best self for me and my family. I was intentional and proud. I worked to keep love alive and exciting even after so many years together. I was a best friend and the biggest cheerleader to my family unit.

Some people never get to experience love like that. I did. I have. I do.

And that makes me an incredibly blessed woman.

Taylor Swift

Last month Grammy treated me and Haley to the Taylor Swift concert. It was outstanding for several reasons.

Reason #1- It was a night with my mom and my daughter. This is a rare occasion and I continue to soak in these special life moments. Grandmother, mother, daughter. I am so blessed to enjoy time in this way- with the woman who gave me life- my hero,  and the young lady we gave life to- one of my angels on earth.

Reason #2- It was Taylor Swift! We love her music and she puts on an amazing show! Costume changes, high energy, accoustic beauty. She had it all!

Reason #3- This show was all about GIRL POWER! Taylor would talk between songs about strength and self worth and beauty. I heard every word and love that my daughter and my mom were hearing the same words with me. The timing in life, for these words to be heard by all of us, was divine.Haley and I refer to those messages often.

Thank you, Grammy. It was a night to remember.

2nd and 5th Grades

Haley's last year at Capri!
2nd and 5th grades- they have arrived!!! They're already having a great start to the year. Check out Haley's gold kicks. She hasn't taken them off.